Sunday, January 25, 2015

It's WHAT?!?!?!

My period didn't show up when it was due in mid-December. Shaun didn't want to test because my periods tend to be a little crazy. I was concerned because the app I use said I should have one, and the app isn't usually wrong. As the month went on I wasn't able to enjoy some of my favorite foods; egg nog (non-alcoholic) made me nauseous, the pickles I craved left me feeling sickly, and I was constantly nauseated. Shaun remained skeptical. By mid-January when Aunt Flo still hadn't showed and my symptoms were back full force, he was convinced something was off. 

I got an extra test from a friend and anxiously awaited his arrival home. I set the test on the counter and told him to watch it and tell me the results. I've seen enough negatives in my life. When I washed my hands I saw the first line, but tried not to get too excited. A few minutes later he came out and said "Well, it's what we expected." 
"It's positive?" I asked.

Wow. Cue the dramatic music. I never in a million years thought this would happen. I was certain my baby-making days were over. Yes, everyone keeps telling me I'm young and have all the time in the world ahead of me. No, I didn't believe them. How could I, when we'd struggled for years to conceive with no logical explanation for our inability? Well, I'm a believer. 

I feel so much more confident with this pregnancy. With William I was constantly worried something would happen to him. I struggled everyday to choose joy. With this one, I'm overwhelmed with God's blessings. I can't believe He would love us enough to give us another chance. I'm so grateful, and feel confident this pregnancy will end with a healthy baby. I'm still praying every day for our health and safety, and I appreciate everyone who's praying for us. 

This song played on the radio the day after we found out, and it left me sobbing. It just totally sums up how i feel right now. Lord, I'm overwhelmed...

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